Location: Fallmouth, Antigua

So many things. I have so many things to say about this trip. How it’s changed me, how much I’ve learned, memories I have. There is so much value in being outside in the sun all day. There is so much time in a day, so much can happen, and it can go by in a second when you’re having fun. I’ve gotten better at listening to people, being patient, and making connections. I have learned so much about myself. I cannot believe that this trip is almost over. It feels like only yesterday. I took a deep breath and hugged my dad goodbye to leaving for three months on a boat with 20 strangers. Never could I have imagined how much these people could have changed me. This trip has allowed me to escape the routine comfort of my regular life and opened my eyes to things that are now so clear to me. I have grown a huge appreciation for things that I once took for granted. This trip has been extreme in every sense of the word. I have had days that were extremely hard, stressful, and exhausting, and I have had days that are extremely rewarding, eye-opening, beautiful, and unforgettable special. The idea of leaving this life is daunting, but I am looking forward to the opportunity to face the world through a new lens. I don’t know what it will be like to re-enter society, but I do know that whatever comes my way, I will be ready.

Today we debated the ethicality of whaling in Bequia, looking from the perspectives of local Bequians, the IWC, the Green Peace, and Sea Shepherds. We brought the main boom all the way out abeam from the boat and swung off of a rope tied to the clue ring into the sea. We dove all by ourselves, with no staff under the water with us. I remember when I came here, never having gone diving in my life. When my group came back from our dive, we were greeted by our beloved crew member Kiki. It felt so good to see him. The boat has not have been the same without my friend. We ate some delicious food together, and for the squeeze, I asked, “What things make you feel at home?” My answer is Pine Trees, something I’ve missed being on these islands.

I fall asleep to the sound of waves and wake up to feel the sun on my face. The sea has taught me many lessons I will not soon forget when I get back to the earth beneath my feet. I feel so lucky to have experienced all that I have. I wouldn’t have things any different. Life is beautifully poetic and hard to understand, but I feel like I have seen a glimpse of what it’s all about for me.

Love you, family. See you soon! Signing off as Skipper for the Ocean Star for the last time. It’s been Extreme.

– Casey